untitLed # 2
no one could’ve described the feeling better - floating. yes. that’s what it is. i’m floating… again. i’m drifting down life’s highway as i let my good ol’ "buddies" Fate and Experience drive the car i’m riding. they’re taking me somewhere - somewhere i don’t think i want to go - but i offer no resistance. i’m tired of trying to win over all that life throws at me.
i wish life were as simple as those portrayed in RPGs. ang dali siguro ng buhay nun noh? i mean, sure, maybe because it’s an RPG kind of life that would mean that the world we live in will ALWAYS be in danger (heh, what’s new? it’s always in danger anyway… just not from the usual "monsters" we know of…), but who cares? look on the bright side:
1. more adventures for those who want it!
2. cars wouldn’t be the only mode of transportation! hell, most of the time we’d be expected to WALK! (good exercise!) just think! i could raise my own golden chocobo!!! ang cool nun…
3. money would never be a problem for anyone brave enough to slay the treacherous beasts lurking in some nearby cave. IMAGINE THAT! i’d be freaking RICH, RICH, RICH!!! hehehe… okaaaaayyyy, so maybe we’d be rish (meaning me and my partners… i don’t think i’m fool enough to try killing a monster that would yield a LOT of money alone… kelangan ng back-up nyan…)
but then again, things still wouldn’t be as simple. imagine the world’s population. now imagine the amount of monsters we’d have to have for everyone to be happy with how much they’ve got. wooooowwww… every square inch of this freaking world would be covered with monsters. humans are greedy. *sssiiiiggghhh* ang hirap mabuhay.
so again, i’m back to where i started. life sucks right now. i used to be able to look at my life and say i was content but now… now, when i look back, i find myself thinking "WHAT THE HELL DID I DO THAT FOR?!"… gandang reflection sa buhay yan noh? i’ve taken to reflecting on all the mistakes i’ve made that i seem to have forgotten what good i’ve done…
so anyway, i guess i’ll be floating around for now. all these sessions of self-pity will end sooner or later anyway but until i can set my feet back on earth, i guess the only thing i can promise myself is that i won’t stop searching for who i really should be… ooh, this is gonna be a long task…
June 18th, 2006 at 1:42 pm
I believe it will come to you. Life can be really confusing sometimes.. it’s either we want so many things and don’t know which one to choose.. or we don’t even know what we want and what we should be… I realized that no matter how much we try to reach the other side of the rainbow.. to find our golden chest…. we could still end up finding it just right where we are standing. Maybe it is life itself that leads us to where we truly belong… and it doesn’t matter what where who how or when it happens. Maybe another round at the call center can lead you to somewhere else… Just like in a game.. one clue leads to another. ^-^ Just keep walking.. ^-^ and keep on killing the monsters within you.
June 18th, 2006 at 2:08 pm
because riding a porsche doesn’t always means riding it fast…i once drove mine fast with an exact idea of where would i be… and so i shift and drift…tapos ayun nabangga…total wreck…tsk tsk…tapos naisip ko…naisip ko…wala naman talagang nakakaalam kung san tayo papunta…bat ba ko nagmamadali…dinala ko sha sa casa at magmula nun nagmaneho ng dahan dahan…ayus din yung ginawa mo,di pa naman huli ang lahat. dito lang kami
June 21st, 2006 at 3:58 am
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kaya ko kayo mahaL eh… saLamat. =)