~L0st iN My 0wN miNd~

i understood this before. i just don’t know why i lost sight of this lesson only to have to relearn this all over again the hard way.

there are merits to being a pessimist. learn to expect everything to fall apart every single time.

asar. i learned that lesson a long time ago… i guess it’s just that i’ve gotten so used to everything going according to plan that i forgot that one should never expect things because they’ll disappointment usually follows close. my college sisters learned that lesson with me, and it was a lesson i took to heart. but now… now… when something suddenly falls apart, i find myself lost. i don’t find myself nonchalantly brushing off the inconsistencies actual events have when faced with my "master plan". i used to do that effectively - simply nod acceptance at the new changes then just move on and make the best of it.

it’s scary how shaky friendships could be… but i’m learning again. believe me, i am. i haven’t been idle during my "vacation". i’m back in school…

i’m learning to expect the worst.

tangina, tama na nga ang drama. nakaka-drain lang. besides, nip/tuck na rin lang naman eh… manonood na lang ako ng tv. it’ll be a good start to brushing away life’s unpleasant surprises…

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