on being alone…
nga pala. that last line of mine made me think about something else that’s been bothering me…
is it really so weird and so hard to understand that a person can be alone and yet not be lonely at the same time? a lot of people i know find me weird because i often take trips to wherever (to the select store at shell at 3am, to a carnival for hours till it closes, to the mall…) with no one tagging along.
weird ba talaga? sensya na, hindi ko talaga gets eh. hindi ba kaya mas weird kung magpapasama ka sa taong dein mo naman trip talaga kasama dahil lang gusto mong may kasama ka? o kaya kung magpasama ka dahil lang ayaw mong sabihan kang weirdo? hindi ba mas maganda kung magpasama ka sa mga tao na trip mong kausapin? o kaya yung mga taong kuntento lang na asa tabi mo kahit dein ka nagsasalita?
why should i be forced to suffer the presence of someone who isn’t welcome? don’t get me wrong though, sinasabi ko naman sa mga tao pag ayokong may kasama ako sa mga oras na yun. (so for those of you who might be hesitant to join in on a tripping, don’t worry about things. if i say it’s okay for you to come, then i mean it.)
i’m not changing. mas convenient sa akin ang ganito kasi at least kahit kelan, pag may trip akong gawin, dein kong kelangan ng kasama para sumaya.
no complications about schedules…
no need to worry about whether they get home safely after the tripping…
todo bawas sa sakit talaga ng ulo.
*sigh* sensya na. it gets annoying sometimes, having people look surprised when you mention you were all alone when you went to a certain place. hahaha, pero kung sa bagay nga naman… i’ve been like this for so long, i should already be used to it. again people… it IS possible to be alone and not be lonely. think about it… better yet, give it a try. you might acquire a taste for solitude.
February 28th, 2006 at 5:48 pm
oonga mas weird sila. hehe ano bang nangyayari na sayo?
February 28th, 2006 at 6:15 pm
Funny, I don’t feel weird when I go to out all by myself. I just get dressed, go where I want, and not particularly care what other people think I’m doing there all by my lonesome.
And I find portable MP3s a very relaxing substitute to conversation. =P
March 14th, 2006 at 8:30 pm
Hahaha you can delete this. But Like I said I dont see a change in you. Fundamentaly that is. You changed a lot in so many was but the you I knew in HS is still there.
Remember the time you told me to buzz of when you were feeling down in the lib? Hahaha! I dint understand you then but now thankfully I do, if only a little. Later dudette! Ciao!