mood swing kicks in…
i just got back from a walk after my lunch today and i just realized something…
i’m wasting away.
once again, i am just another backseat passenger in Life’s joyride. i’m pretending to be asleep, even when so many people are already nudging me out of their way. even when people are already stepping over me, or maybe even stepping ON me, i still pretend not to notice. wow… the beginnings of a loser.
ever feel this way? your mood darkens, your friends are far away so you have no one to distract you from the thoughts that creep into your head, and you’re left all by your lonesome to battle the inner demons that try to steal your happiness away. thoughts hit you one after the other (bam! bam! bam!) and try as you will, nothing stops their onslaught. they massacre your brain cells, crush your sense of peace and contentment, and kill you (brain, body, and heart) slowly… ever so slowly…
the last time i was like this was back in december… pagod na naman ako. i need some sort of distraction…
an out-of-town trip would cure me. tagaytay, baguio, even puerto… but none of those are possible right now. no money. got work. next option? i think it’s time to go back to the Joker…
