~L0st iN My 0wN miNd~

i’m tired of playing a game i’m not even supposed to be playing. i know nothing about it and yet here i am, playing against the pros. i know i should stop but will i ever have the strength to do so?

right, whatever. it’s an unimportant question that i know will be answered sooner or later. don’t really need to think about this too much. work keeps me busy anyway.

thank god for work… (never thought i’d ever say that though…) =c

I’m Not That Girl - from the musical WICKED

hands touch, eyes meet
sudden silence, sudden heat
hearts leap in a giddy whirl
he could be that boy, but i’m not that girl
don’t dream too far
don’t lose sight of who you are
don’t remember that rush of joy
he could be that boy, but i’m not that girl
every so often we long to steal to the land of "what might have been"
but that doesn’t soften the ache we feel when reality sets back in
blithe smile, lithe limb
she who’s winsome, she wins him
gold hair with a gentle curl
that’s the girl he chose and heaven knows i’m not that girl
don’t wish, don’t start
wishing only wounds the heart
i wasn’t born for the rose and pearl
there’s a girl i know
he loves her so
i’m not that girl…

just when you’ve finally gotten around to accepting the whole situation…
when you’ve realized that you’re better off without something/someone…
when it’s clear that everything’s over…
THAT’s when things start going the way you want it to go…

sucks to be me… sometimes. o^^o

LESS THAN JAKE - THE SCIENCE OF SELLING YOURSELF SHORT

I’ve come to my senses,
That I’ve become senseless,
I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships,
Every last conviction, I smoked them all away,
I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems,

[Chorus:]
I’ll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I’m the king of catastrophes,
I’m so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it’s fine by me,
I’m my own worst enemy

I could be an expert on co-dependency,
I could write the best book on underage tragedy,
I’ve been spending my time at the local liquor store,
I’ve been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
I’m so over dosed on apathy burnt out on sympathy

[Chorus]

Let the meaning slip away
Lost my faith in another day,
Self deprication seems okay,
I never thought I’d make it anyway

[Chorus]

I’m my own worst enemy…

* how appropriate. thanks for the new songs, Luis.