~L0st iN My 0wN miNd~

One sweet autumn day at tokyo you see the most cool creature you have ever seen. Their name is Lucas, and every move he makes just turns you on more and more. You nudge your best friend Rai and say, "Wow, that has to be the most cheerful body I have ever seen." Suddenly, he looks in your direction and starts walking right towards you!!! he says, "I noticed you staring at me from over there. I just had to tell you, that I think you are so noisy , and was wondering if you’d like to go to south korea with me and read ?" With a stupid smile on your face you say, " shut up " and go with them. When you finally get to south korea , he moves closer to you, and gives you the biggest kiss ever. The two of you are passionately kissing, when you feel a cellphone hit you on the back of the head. You open your eyes to find out it’s all a dream, but there is a note left next to your bed.

It reads: " Lucas is the love you’ve been waiting your whole life for. he will ask you out in 19 days or less, but only if you send this e-mail to at least 10 people within the next few minutes. The more people you send it to, the sooner they will ask you out, and you both fall in love. Do not take this lightly, because if you simply ignore this, you will have bad luck in love for the next 19 years!"

riiiiggghhht. ang sweet noh?  0.o too bad wala akong kilalang "Lucas" ang pangalan. whatever…

**the text written in green are words i was asked to supply. hah! if i only i had known that my "favorite phrase" would be my response to dear "cheerful-bodied Lucas", i would’ve chosen a better one…

asdfkljhasdflkjashdflkjhasdfl kjhasdflkjahsdflkjhasdflkjhas dflkjhasdflkjhasdflkjhasdflkjh asdflkjhasdflkjahsdflkjahsdfl kjhasdflkjhadsflkjhasdflkjhas dflkjhadsflkjhasdflkjhasdflkjh asdflkjhasdflkjhasdflkjhasdfl kjhasdflkjhasdflkjhasdflkjhas dflkjhasdflkjhasdflkjhasdflkjh

ang kulit. i actually feel a bit more relaxed after the above exercise: just typed in the letters in a sort of pattern. pretty. ^^ i think i’ll do it again…

qwerpoiuqwerpoiuqwerpoiuq werpoiuqwerpoiuewrpoiuqwe rpoiuqwerpoiuqwerpiouqwerp oiuqwerpiouqwerpiouqwerpio uqwerpoiuqwerpoiuqwerpoiu qwerpoiuqwerpoiuqwerpoiuq werpoiuqwerpoiuqwerpoiuqw erpiouqwerpiouqweropiuqwer poiuqwerpoiuqwerpiouqwerp oiuqwerpoiuqwer…

hmm… that wasn’t relaxing as i had hoped. the letters somehow don’t look as interesting as the first set… ayoko na nga.

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7:30pm
wakie-wakie!
nagising akong bangag. tumayo akong gumegewang-gewang. sarrrrraaaap sanang bumagsak (tipong ala-Nestea iced tea!) ulit sa kama para matulog kaso, nag-promise kasi ako kina twish at rai na pupunta akong gweilos para panoorin yung gig nila. kumain ako ng dinner.

EEEENNNNNGGGG!!! red alert! muntikan akong di payagan ng papa ko pumuntang eastwood dahil gabing-gabi na daw. buti na lang wala lang akong imik. deadma hanggang sinabi niyang ‘bahala ka nga…’

hehe, ayun nga, bahala nga ako kaya tumuloy ako. bago umalis, umutang ako kay kuya (nyehehe… iba na talaga ang pulubi. walang hiya nang gigising ng kapatid para lang umutang…).hinatid ako ni mama pagkatpos naming sunduin si ate. wala lang. ang kulit. ayaw ni papa, pero game si mama sa pag-alis ko.

grabe. nag-iba na ang eastwood. dati, nung nagtratrabaho pa ako dun, walang katao-tao. puro mga yuppies lang andun dahil sa mga bank buildings. ngayon… naks. mga pormado ang naabutan ko. makukulay ang mga ilaw. parang ibang mundo ang pinuntahan ko. tumuloy kaming starbucks tapos kwentuhan lang kami dun sandali. tapos, dahil napagod na kami sa kakaupo at sa kaka-kwentuhan, nag-timezone, este, powerstation pala, kami. ang kulit. tagal ko nang di nag-drive sa initial D. as usual, panalo ako sa mga race ko (naks! ang yabang!!! XD). nanalo ako ng 24 tickets at ang katumbas nun ay 4 na pirasong plastic balloon at 4 na marbles.

12:23am
nagpla-plastic-balloon kami ni lee habang papasok ng gweilos. ang saya kasi ang tagal-tagal ko nang di nalalasahan yung plastic balloon. napa-reminisce tuloy ako.ahhh… my childhood days. ang saya. walang kaproble-problema. my only major problem was how to get the money i’d need to buy the corn-flavored taho at the grocery.
anyway, back to the present. akyat kami tapos sisig ang naabutan naming tumutugtog. next up na ang fftc kaya steady lang kami sa isang tabi, bagbo-blowing bubbles.

hahaha, yung mga balloon namin, laging nagkakaroon ng butas dahil sa lakas ng tugtugan. nanginginig yung balloon kasabay ng bass guitar. ang cute tignan.
tinugtog ng fftc ang ‘i believe in the thing called love’ first and then lazy girl, oneself’s bitterness, and shakey’s pizza came next. after fftc came monkeyspank. aliw. pangalawang beses ko pa lang sila napapanood pero, astig talaga sila. sana makapanood pa ako ng ibang gig nila.

after monkeyspank, tuloy kami sa mister kabab. kumain ako ng keema (mmm… keema… yummm…) with plain rice. tapos, na-discover kong ang lamig pala ng drinking water na sineserve nila dun! (not to self: tubig na lang lagi ang inumin pag asa mister kabab…)

3:00am
dahil ayaw akong pauwiin ni papa ng madaling araw, tumambay na lang ako kina rai hanggang umaga.

teka lang. kwento lang ako ng kabuwisitan: sumakay kami ng jeep papuntang bahay. ako at si rai, sa maceda bababa. si twish tsaka si vida, sa may PGH. ang pamasahe papuntang PGH, 14.00 kada tao. sa maceda, 7.50 lang. so, nagbigay si vida ng P22 (kasi umutang sa kanya si rai). si twish nagbigay ng P15. sinuklian ko siya ng P1 tapos dinagdagan ko ng P6.50 ang pamasahe bago ko inabot sa batang nangongolekta ng bayad. bigla ba naman kaming sinabihan na kulang kami ng 7.50?!?! eh, hello?!
ang kelangan bayad vs. ang binayad:
(7.50×2)+(14.00×2) = 22+15+6.50
15+28=43.50
43.00=43.50

agh! buwisit! kami pa nga dapat siniuklian ng P0.50 eh! pero, di na namin ni rai naabutan kung anong nangyari sa kwentahan kasi kinailangan na namin bumaba.
tumambay lang kami sa labas ng bahay ni rai. gusto man niyang mag-bihis ng pambahay, di niya magawa kasi naka-lock yung bahay. kwentuhan kami sa labas. naglabas ako ng sama ng loob tapos, ganun din siya. kwentuhan tungkol sa pamilya, sa mga "kaibigan", kulitan, etc…

5:13am
tapos dahil sa sobrang pulubi na ako, (P1.40 na lang ang perang natira sa wallet ko, mga kababayan… huhuhu…), nagpasundo na lang ako sa mama ko. pero habang hinihintay siya, naisipan naming iinvade ang UST. naglakad-lakad kami sa UST. picture-picturan. kaso bitin, kasi dumating na mama ko. nakauwi ako ng mga bandang 6:45am.

6:45am
natulog ako. nagising na ako ng 7:46pm… ang haba ng tulog ko.
astig.

excuse me if i don’t cherish the thought of sharing my life’s story with you just so that you’d understand me better.

this is me.

this is what i am.

it’s how i am.

forgive me for not changing who i am just because many people want me to change or just so that more people would like to have me as a friend.

i will not do so until I decide that i want to change. it’s what comes with being happy and contented with who you’ve already become…

nghengngenghhhh…

my stomach clock just went off… it’s suppertime and someone’s forgotten to feed me. here i lie… a withering, hollow, shell, of a person…

AGH! nagugutom na ako pero wala pang bukas na MATINONG bilihan ng pagkain… hmm… mister kabab kaya ako…? yumm… kabab…

AGH!!! THE TORTURE!!!

*ang labo ng title… wala na kasi akong maisip pang gamitin eh.

yesterday after work, i decided to take an fx from megamall instead of the usual bus-jeep rides on the way home. while on my way to the terminal though, i got distracted by the numerous shampoo and conditioner brands that were on shelf by the department store exits. i never made it out the door, unfortunately (though i’m starting to regret this…). i was going through the items (and occasionally smelling a particular brand of hair product) when a girl walked by and i noticed her skirt. it was denim… it was long… it was flaring at the hemline… and i liked the way it looked. so with the skirt in mind, i went up to the second (and third) floors of the department store to try and find a skirt of the same design… but while moving from one clothes rack to another, i found my hair starting to annoy me. i tried several times to make a decent ponytail out of all the tangles, but it was so frustrating that i finally reached the conclusion that i should have a haircut. so, with that in mind, i went all the way up to the fifth floor, randomly picked out a salon, and went in. i came out almost 2 hours later looking like this:

…sheesh… what have i done?!!

Again, here are lyrics of songs i’m currently hooked on. sad yet very meaningful lyrics, cool vocals, reminiscent of a feeling evoked by the kind of friendship everyone wants to have… the kind i’ve already found and hope to keep till my next life and even beyond then…

**thanks for the new finds, rai! guru talaga kita pagdating sa musika… ^_^

**twish, salamats sa cd! enjoy ako sa panonood. ^_^ question, kasamahan ba nina fruity loops yung nasa video ng wo men de ai?

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Look At Me

Look at me
Look into my eyes
Tell me, do you see that I am always by your side?
Or has the world got you down on your knees?
Come to me

Look at you
Look into your heart
Tell me is there room for you to make a brand new start?
Or has the world gotten to you and made you dark?
Come to me

‘Cuz when you cry, all your tears I will wipe away
and when you laugh, who you think got you that way?
And when you dream, when you wake up, is it me you want to see?

Look at us
Look around the world
‘cuz all you seem to find are unhappy boys—unhappy girls, baby
and tell me is that what you want for you and me?
Don’t you want to be happy?

You know you can always come to me

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If No One Will Listen

Maybe no one told you there is strength in your tears
And so you fight to keep from pouring out
But what if you unlock the gate that keeps your secret soul
Do you think there’s enough that you would drown?

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one is left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still
I will be here still

No one can take you where you alone must go
There’s no telling what you will find there
And, God, I know the fear that eats away at your bones
It’s screaming every step, “Just stay here”

If you find your fists are raw and red from beating yourself down
If your legs have given out under the weight
If you find you’ve been settling for a world of gray
So you wouldn’t have to face down your own hate

*both songs by Keri Noble*

Go0d MoRninG StarSHinE! ThE EarTH sayS ‘HeLL0′!!!

due to a momentary case of boredom, i decided to log on to the net for a while to check out some stuff (mail, friendster, blogs, yada-yada blah-blah…). i came across a post by Lainey: what’s your japanese name? curiousity piqued, i checked the site out and found out that my name, Cristina Miranda, translates to KARASUMA TAKAKO. hehehe, nice. Uehara Takako used to be a favorite jpop artist of mine…

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anyway, upon exploring the site further, i came upon some other short quizzes and stuff. here are the results:

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What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you’re told that you’re loved. You’d like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful… that you’ll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything… no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You’ll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You’ll do anything for love, but you won’t fall for it easily.

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My Hawaiian name happens to be: Lani Noelani

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Hmm… i forgot what test i took to get the next specific results, but *shrug* i figured i’d post it anyway:

You are dependable, popular, and observant. Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness. In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do. You are unique, creative, and expressive. You don’t mind waving your freak flag every once and a while. And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!

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Next up is what i was in my past life. the "quiz" just asked me what i do for a living and i answered "technical support representative".

You Were: A Kind Spice Trader.

Where You Lived: North Africa.

How You Died: Typhoid fever.

BWAHAHAHAHA!!! that last one really got to me… typhoid… sheesh. i wish i was mauled by a pride of hungry lions instead or something. that would’ve been way cooler. =p

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what my birthday says about me…

Your Birthdate: May 14 With a birthday on the 14th of the month (5 energy) you are inclined to work well with people and enjoy them. You are talented(o) and versatile, very good at presenting ideas (yep, very good at stammering while presenting the ideas as well, haaayyy), and you are also very good at organization and systematizing (although not so when it comes to clutter-proofing my bedroom…). You may have a tendency to get itchy feet at times and need change and travel. You tend to be very progressive, imaginative and adaptable. Your mind is quick, clever and analytical. (yeah. my tongue just doesn’t seem to cooperate at times though…) A restlessness in your nature may make you a bit impatient and easily bored with routine, and rebel against it. You have a tendency to shirk responsibility. (just a tendency??)

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anyway, the moment of boredom has passed now. bye-bye! ^_^

it’s nice hearing from old friends, don’t you agree? =)

you know what’s even nicer though? hearing from your old friends that they’re happy to hear from you too. that hits the spot.

"For happiness is anyone and anything at all that’s loved by you." -You’re a Good Man, Charlie Brown

ice-cold lollipopsicles.. hurdle a plenty. architectural ganders and gooseses. testimonials. enact.. yogurt. one dozen slimey shells. umbrellas-a-hanging.. challenging challengers. haughty princesses. ignorant apes. castles in the sky. orangutans a behind on monkeys..

wala lang ako magawa. masarap ang panahon ngayon… umuulan-ulan. trip kong maligo sa ulan ngayon. tulad nung bata pa ako at wala akong kamalay-malay sa mundo. wala pang pakialam sa mga taong buwisit. basta masaya at maingat sa sarili ng hindi madapa at magkasugat (dahil ayoko ng agua oxinada! yeoowcchh!!!). mahal ko kayo, mga kapatid ko. miss ko na kayong kasama, kahit kalahating araw tayo kahapon nagliwaliw. nanginginig akong isiping dadating ang araw na mababawasan ng isa ang ating munting samahan. stuck to you like glue. like gum in a person’s hair. like a leech to its victim. but i’ll try not to be a leech, pare. aykong higupin ang dugo niyo kasi pag ganun, mawawala kayo. i’ll be a leech to my "friends" instead. ^_^

bakit ganun? ang panget na ng nangyayari sa mundo? nagkakagulo ang pinas! (pfft, ha!) buwisit.

"you know me, i’m always happy." yep. always happy. sulitin ang pagiging buhay… sulitin ang lahat.