~L0st iN My 0wN miNd~

i’m not making any sense anymore. i seem to be spacing out a lot lately. my attention span has been reduced greatly and somehow, i feel really down.

WHAT THE HELL’S WRONG WITH ME?!

i’m sad, that’s what. i don’t get to do the things i used to love doing before… i rarely get to spend time with my family anymore… i miss my home… i miss my bed… my playstation… my movies… the friends i used to know are changing (though i can still see a shadow of the ‘them’ i used to know getting buried deeper under all the layers of experiences they’ve had without me)… i guess because of all of this, i’m slowly sinking into a fit of depression, and i don’t like it.

HAHAHA!!! i don’t like myself when i get depressed because when i get depressed, i become even more silent than usual (which i think ’scares’ my friends away for a bit). jokes that would’ve had me laughing for at least a full minute would only receive a ghost of a smile… friends i normally greet with a wave and a smile would only receive a nod of the head… i sleep less at night… i eat more than usual…

typical. ugh. and i get mad (for reasons unexplained) when i get too typical.

geez… so now i’m a bit depressed AND a bit angry as well. that sucks.

can someone throw me a lifesaver?!

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